Degenerative disease

They say 60 is the new 40. Mirrors don't lie, so I absolutely agree, hahaha, walang kokontra. Because when I say I will be retiring in a month's time, common response is ..... really?!, unbelievable... Grabe, haba hair ko di ba?!!!! Pwede!!!! Until, the back of my neck hurt and a consult with the doctor revealed... tada... cervical spondylosis, a degenerative disease!!! huwat?!!!! sounded like a death sentence. Something which is inevitable due to aging, the doctor added!!!! huwat again!!!!! So the facade looks 40 (ehem) but the foundation is crumbling and it can't be helped!!! But the good news is, the situation could be corrected by rehab, so no worries, I could still climb Mt Pulag with ginoo.The point is, nobody can escape aging. So I am lovingly embracing it and ipinangangalandakan ko...... ako ay sisenta na sa april 10, na wala pang ipinaparetoke, feels sooo liberating after years of faking 40, hahahaha. My daughter will be sooo relieved coz she doesn't have to fake 24 anymore.

Lonesome but definitely not lonely!

As my retirement nears, what I fear most is that I might have no one to talk to... with my kids all having their own lives, my friends, still busy in the old grind, no more clients to interact with etc, etc. Just a little way back, as I was in my usual monologue (as I always wont, despite being with my besfren), my besfren  told me ... hey, actually you are a loner ( huwat!!! my gregarious self, a loner?!) then it dawned on me!! I enjoy being by myself, talking to myself.. indeed. When I look back, there were times I would eat by myself in our very crowded cafeteria not minding the fact that I was eating by myself (and people asking me who I am with, as if being lonesome is lonely) and thoroughly enjoying it ( which others find bizarre, hahaha). I have been in marketing for the past 30 years, and consistently doing something for more than 2 weeks truly becomes a habit, such that maybe one could develop into something actually not what the person really wants to be but what circumstances drive her to be! eureka moment! am I making sense?! This reminds me of one of the lessons of my son in Northridge way, way back which really stuck..... Juan in school, must be Juan at home. Maybe it is difficult to untanggle what has been ingrained thru years of exposure, but hey, it's a challenge to try. So now, as the d day fast approaches, I would have much, much time and wherewithal for real self discovery. I thorougly enjoyed my past 37 years in banking but I want to embark on a self discovery... what am I really passionate about, who and what is the real moi? Peel off the layers of vassarism ( private joke) and expose the real retired and beautiful me, hahaha. Lonesome but definitely not lonely!!!! whoohuuu!!!!

New beginnings

I've always wanted to start a blog about anything that interests me which actually are sooo many. But am so techinically challenged which made me hesitate until a friend introduced me to it. So here goes. I hope I have enough creative juices to make me an interesting read. I have no problem sharing, actually, I am so madaldal in real life that I have no problem talking to strangers and revealing to them my innermost details, hahaha, to which my officemate said, this is a sign of aging coz her almost 80 year old mom is like that, so I have to tone it down otherwise I will reveal my age. blah, blah, blah,blah, hahaha. However now that I am retiring soon, April 15 to be exact, I don't give a hoot anymore if people discover how old I really am...I will be retirednbeautiful soon!!!! And I am already a lohla to a very pretty chikitita, so no reason anymore to hide my age.Am looking forward to doing things I've never done before, trying out anything that will interest me and sharing them to all and sundry. Travel will be on top of my list, Obagi definitely will be a mainstay, Ulthera or not to Ulthera (debate still going on). Must pursue my desire to take up creative writing, definitely. Take care of Chikitita when needed, of course. Start scrapping from my bucket list, asap. Resume pilates, bikram yoga and definitely continue ballroom dancing. Wow, my calendar is so full, I want to start right now. So that my next blogs will be more interesting, I should learn to put pictures, humm, a great challenge. But hey, I mastered facebook, so no big deal. New beginnings, here I come!!!!