Be Still!

Be still! Easy to say!!! After 37 years of corporate life, I have imbibed a sense of urgency in everything. A slow paced mode is a waste of time, should always be competitive, team player, etc, etc. Doing something consistently for almost 4 decades has become a habit and trickled down even to my personal life. Keeping still makes me restless. Nakakapagod! (So tiring!) But I cannot help it, it is automatic... everything is rush, important, a life or death situation, so to speak. Even the way I walk evokes a sense of urgency!! hahaha. My besfren would always say, me lakad ka ba, bakit ka laging nagmamadali, hahaha. Despite Richard Carlson's reminder ( in his book Don't Sweat The Small Stuff )... remind yourself that when you die, your in basket won't be empty.... it is difficult to be still!...."the nature of your in basket is that it's meant to have items to be completed in it - it's not meant to be empty". So I have to learn to relax. Being still and unproductive ( as I have come to think) has also a purpose. It is meant to recharge, to shift course, to find a game changer. Not everything has a profound reason, inanity is not bad, it is invigorating, sometimes. Inane used to be a pet peeve, but now I'm more tolerant of it. Welcome Inane!!!!
Be still! I need to savor the moment, slow down, slow down. Perhaps yoga will indeed be helpful, breathe, breathe, breathe. In my retirement, I have so many things lined up, again in fast mode!!! I want to do and complete everything fast!!! Screechhhhh, put on the brakes, one day at a time, have to keep reminding myself. Savor the moment!!! Namnamin ang sarap, huwag lunok ng lunok, savor, savor!!!  No gobbling. BE STILL!